THAT DAY

That day is coming around again
The day began not realizing it would also all end
TODAY
It was a moment boiling for some time
A moment ignored but always a constant on our mind
This day it boiled over and all was lost
Selfishness ruled at any cost
Tears and pain lasted many a day
I still kick myself for not telling you to stay
We're so far gone not sure if there is a point of return
Do you start over intentionally forgetting what you've learned?
To have a fresh start
How does your heart forget?
The great times and the bad
The day we said "F*ck what we had!"
That day is coming around again
Ironically its the day before Independence Day
We looked at each other one last time and couldn't muster up any words
For this day we got our "freedom"
Doubted it the whole way
But pride wouldn't let me say "We made a mistake"
I turned to walk away
Wanted to scream & shout "STAY"
But I closed my eyes wiped my tears and walked away
Don't know why, I've asked myself multiple times
Destroyed my heart
Lost a part of me
Divided the family
A constant reminder
Of what we are not what we thought we would be..........


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LMJ©2010

UNTITLED

SHARING IS CARING, THIS IS A POEM BY ROY MALVEAUX, HE SAYS HE'S NOT A WRITER/POET BUT THESE WORDS CLEARLY SAY OTHERWISE. I LOVE THIS "EXPRESSION OF WORDS" & HE GAVE ME PERMISSION TO SHARE THEM WITH YOU. THANKS ROY

You will always be a part of me
From the simple touch to the way you smiled at me
Who knew that I would fall so hard for you..... And all you'd do is turn ya back on me...
U bring out the best in me,
Always uplifting me
And when I was down..... I didn't have to look around cuz I knew you'd always be next to me...
Never disrespected me
And now that ur gone I can't find the rest of me...
No rest for me
Sometimes I questioned god why did he take u away from me
But I guess he knows what’s best for me...
Babe how could you leave me
I would trade my life to have u next to me...
It’s been 3 years since you've been away from me
This pain is trying to take over me
But I promise you it won't get the best of me
It seems like I still feel you touching me
Kissing me
Holding me
Squeezing me
I can't stop thinking about how much u meant to me
I miss you so much and I hope you’re missing me
Time heals all is what they say to me
But who the hell are they to tell me what’s best for me
This is far greater than them and me
I'm talking about the love you shared with me
Being strong is best for me
Cuz if you were alive this is what you'd expect of me...
Yea the best of me...
But..... Babe... I love u
And you are a blessing to me
Even though ur not here with me.....
You will always be a part of me...
-Roy Malveaux-
©2010

GET OVER IT, DAMN!

"I don't want to waste your time" is what was said
What part are you missing?
Why can't you get it through your head?
I don't like you in any way, shape or form
So why drag this on?
You're a nice guy but I just don't feel like dealing
You think I'm mad because you didn't give me any sexual healing
I can manage that on my own
Didn't need your assistance to hear me moan
When I tried to tell you in a nice way to leave me alone
Your ego wouldn't let it rest
Pounding on your chest saying "I am man hear me roar"
I stuffed a rag in your mouth saying "KILL that noise"
I had to switch characters on you
Seemed that's the only way I could get through
It worked for awhile mostly because we rarely crossed paths
But when you did see me it reactivated your battery, gave you the feeling I was what you had to have
Felt you had to address it
Once again I said
DON'T stress it
LEAVE it be
MOVE on
Gave a final threat to F*UCK off or this is going to get ugly
Don't try me
because unleashed I'm detrimental
I'm warning you NOW this is not a war you want to get into!

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I LAY HERE

I LAY HERE
NUMB EMOTIONALLY
HAR TO CONVEY WHAT I'M THINKING VERBALLY
I LAY HERE
EYES CLOSED
FOR FEAR OF WHAT'S IN FRONT OF ME
I LAY HERE
THOUGHTS SCATTERED
CAN'T FOCUS
PARALYZED IN A TIME WHERE EVERYTHING MATTERED
I LAY HERE
HEARTBEAT ON HIGH
SADLY THE ONLY MOMENT I FEEL ALIVE
I LAY HERE
STUCK IN A TRANCE



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WHEN I'M GONE

In the event I shall not see another tomorrow
Please don't cry or feel any sorrow
I'm still here in spirit
Just open up your mind
I'm there
You'll feel it
My time was valued by those who loved me
Just because I'm not in front of you doesn't mean you don't see
My child (ren) will share all that I was
Because through her (them) you'll still feel my love
I shall leave behind a few things to get you through this time
My poetry
Will keep me close to you forever
I'm at the parties, weddings, and all weather
For I am the sun to your bright days
The rain in  your dismay
The snow in your overload
I'm the arm you'll feel when it's cold
So when i leave
Don't get upset
I've had my time
See you soon

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LMJ©2001

MIXED FEELINGS

We've shared something very special
A part of my world I let you enter
I've given I've given it to you under certain conditions
I don't want to be hurt becauseI've opened myself up to you
I don't want to be used because that's what people do
Things from here on will definitely change
There will no longer familiar looks but those that are strange
Maybe I'm scared, terrified, paranoid all in one
I don't regret how I feel or my decision
I just hope this wasn't all done for fun
I have so many mixed feelings
I don't know what to do
I just don't want to be hurt or for me to hurt you
I'm rambling on I don't know what to say
My feelings are all over all I can do is pray
If GOD sent you to love me then I have to
I'm just usure as to what to do
I'm so mixed up inside
I need a break
Somewhere to hide
2 days, a week I'm not sure how long to take
Let's breathe
Relax
Just go with the flow

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LMJ©2002

WHAT'S YOUR DEFINITION OF A MAN?

Almost on a daily basis I deal with women & friends who are having relationship problems. A few of them dealing with men that are not quite for them but for whatever reason they stay. Same thing goes for men to staying with a woman for some of the dumbest reasons but that's a whole other blog. Back to the topic some of my friends are questioning their men, possibly talking themselves into staying with them when they know they should leave. Every woman in this world who has a good man knows why they are such, I just want you to share, so I can pass on these good stories so that my friends can see that what there getting is not the only thing out there. There are a number of reasons why they may feel this is all then can get or what they deserve but once again that's another bolg topic, LOL. If there are any men out there who want to share what their definition of a man is then please feel free.


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WE ARE JUST FRIENDS

Sometimes I see you and get excited
then there are times like "What have I started?"
at times its not fair to you to be in this situation
but what can I do when these feelings are part of your creation
so what becomes of this experience
do you learn from it or continue to make the same mistake
do you change things around to make a difference
or do you end the chapter and start anew
can you honestly walk away and let things remain the same
I think your heart is too locked in to end the game
sometimes you get too deep
when its really not that serious
because there is only me and you there is no US
don't get me wrong I do like you and feel some way towards you
But things could never escalate and your dreams can't come true
Before you get too deep evaluate the situation
double check the equation
and you will end with a conclusion
WE ARE JUST FRIENDS



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LMJ©2000


(story behind the poem in short about 2 friends who take there relationship to another level and one goes too far and the other takes it for what it is, a fling. I'd love to here fed back and any experiences similiar to this. Which person do you think plays each role male(thinks its just a fling or takes it too far) or female?)

SHARING IS CARING

(SOMEONE SHARED THIS WITH ME SO I'M SHARING IT WITH YOU)


Last Week I threw out Worrying, it was getting old and in the way.
It kept me from being me; I couldn't do things God's way.
I threw out a book on MY PAST
(Didn't have time to read it anyway).
Replaced it with NEW GOALS, started reading it today.
I threw out hate and bad memories,
(Remember how I treasured them so)?
Got me a NEW PHILOSOPHY too, threw out the one from long ago.
Brought in some new books too, called I CAN, I WILL, AND I MUST.
Threw out I might, I think and I ought.
WOW, you should've seen the dust.
I ran across an OLD FRIEND, I hadn't talked to in a while.
His name is GOD the Father, and I really like His style.
He helped me to do some cleaning and added some things Himself.
Like PRAYER, HOPE, FAITH and LOVE, placed them right on the shelf.
I picked up this special thing and placed it at the front door.
I FOUND IT- its called PEACE. Nothing gets me down anymore.
Yes, I've got my house looking nice.
Looks good around the place.
For things like Worry and Trouble there just isn't any space.
It's good to do a little house cleaning,
Get rid of the things on the shelf.
It sure makes things brighter; maybe you should TRY IT YOURSELF.
BE BLESSED AND BE A BLESSING TO SOMEONE ELSE!!!!
May the Lord open the windows of heaven and pour you out a blessing that
you will not have room enough to receive it all.

Malachi 3:10.
May the Lord bless you exceedingly abundantly above all you could ever hope for.

Philippians 4:19.
"I am too blessed to be stressed and too anointed, to be disappointed!"
"Winners make things happen-- Losers let things happen

CHECK 'EM IF YOU HAVE TO!

Some of you can relate to this and some of you can't but I just want to break it down for you. When dealing with a man who has children prior to dealing with you be careful of the baby momma. There are some good women out there who are on good terms with their baby daddy/father of their kid(s) and for that matter call the men by the proper term "my child’s father", I am not talking to you. Only women who have issues with their baby daddy are called such, baby mama, this is directed towards you. Speaking from personal experience I have dealt with a man who has children outside of the children we have. Unfortunately I know the women who had these children (that's another story and not the moral of this one) I was never their friend or anything close to them just know each other from living in the same neighborhood and being in the same age group. My problem is when women use these children as a weapon against these men. I'm not saying don't get involved with these men all I'm saying is just be prepared to check the woman if you have to and don't be afraid of what your man thinks. I had to do that a few times and it was well deserved. Simply because this woman still has feelings for him whether they are because he broke her heart or because she was jealous of his new relationship/kids is far from my concern because I don't give a damn but as a woman I know the feelings are there. She tried to be my friend by putting the child in the middle and I had to check her. She acted as if I didn't know their past from #1 being there and #2 seeing her actions. So her coming at me with BS was a no go. I just wanted to vent a little bit because I'm tired of women dwelling on relationships that did not work especially where children are involved. Just because the parents don't work out you don't have to brainwash the kids that their father isn’t sh*t. Just focus on being the best parent you can be and your child’s well being. All the energy you’re putting into tearing him down your child is losing out. So the moral of the story is check a b*tch if she needs to be checked. You don't have to like each other just respect each other as women we got enough problems to deal with and make sure your man backs you up in how you feel if the BM starts flipping.

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